I figured I'd have to say something sooner or later, and so I'll tell you a secret: I have really terrifying nightmares.
I know, most teenagers have problems; big ones, little ones, reoccurring ones, obnoxious ones, and the like. But me, I have some pretty scary ones. The kind that can't be slept out or cried out or talked out, but the ones that have taken root inside your soul - ones that truly affect the way you are and how you see things. Now you're probably going, "Okay, all right, what is she talking about? What does that have to do with anything?" The answer to that is this: The nightmares freak me out and they happen all the time. But they always end up with the same resolve - I'm alone, falling into nothingness, and I feel like I'm going to die. What always precedes that is either me being chased and I'm running for my life, or something's being taken from me and I can't do anything about it. That happens nearly every night, except for the ones where I can't sleep at all.
I don't know if it's my brain just dumping out all the stuff I ignore, or if it's my psyche screaming for some help. All I really want is for them to go away.
